Thursday, April 30, 2020

"Whhhewwwww", Mother Earth




There is a  global pandemic happening right now. There are over one million people who have transitioned. There are over three million people who have this virus. Conspiracy theories abound side by side the science. What is real and what is not? The answer if simple.

Mother Earth & Father Sky are Real. They are Truth. They live on and thrive, no matter what we silly humans do. Now that we are hiding in our homes, I can feel Mama Earth and Father Sky breathing deep, deeper, deeply. The air is clearer. The earth is greener. The flowers are abundant. 

Here are some photos of the sacred valley I call home. In the hustle and bustle of the Bay Area, is a little gem, away from the now silenced frenetic energy. Hills, valleys, trees, open space. Places we love to walk and BE. Sometimes alone, sometimes with the family and sometimes with friends (safe distancing!)  This is where we are fed and nourished.

These days, and all days, Mother Earth and Father Sky are where I love to be the most. This is my church, my temple. 
A-ho!













Wednesday, April 29, 2020

Doggie Dash


The girls love animals. That is not a well kept secret. We have been running our dog boarding business for over a year and a half.  Yet with a worldwide pandemic currently occurring, their business is on hold. We had two booked sits for April that had to be canceled.

Despite this, Amara decided to make homemade doggie biscuits for our dog friends. Some we have house sat and some we just hang out with.

When the biscuits were done, we sent a text asking if our friends felt comfortable with a safe distance drop off. They were and for the most part that worked out. And the results were some happy dogs!
The girls love animals. That is not a well kept secret. We have been running our dog boarding business for over a year and a half.  Yet with a worldwide pandemic currently occurring, their business is on hold. We had two booked sits for April that had to be canceled.

Despite this, Amara decided to make homemade doggie biscuits for our dog friends. Some we have house sat and some we just hang out with.

When the biscuits were done, we sent a text asking if our friends felt comfortable with a safe distance drop off. They were and for the most part that worked out. And the results were some happy dogs!











Sunday, April 26, 2020

Scenes from Self-Quarantine 1




We are currently in most unusual times. We are living in world wide pandemic, named the Coronavirus. It started in Asia late 2019 and rapidly spread to the four corners of Mama Earth. We traveled to Costa Rica at the very beginning of this pandemic, blissfully unaware that liberation of our adventures in the rain forest would be the end of going out into the world for sometime to come. Within a few weeks of our return to California, the entire state sheltered in place and soon thereafter so did most of the USA and the world. This virus, aka covid19, it spreads quickly and it attacks all. Yet despite the severe consequences of this pandemic; over two million cases world wise, over fifty thousand deaths in the USA alone, the world wide economy shuttered, causing economic hardship for millions upon millions around the globe it is not all darkness. For there are countless gifts as well.

For the first time in far too long, Mama Earth is breathing deeply. The skies are bluer than they have been in decades. The waters are clearer and the finned ones are returning to places long abandoned due to all the human interference. The earth is green and the wild flowers are blossoming in abundance. Science is able to record the positive shifts through imaging and humans like us are enjoying this brighter, happier Mama, during our social distance hikes.

The frenetic energy of everyday life, which I spoke of often to family and friends, was pulsing so strongly that it was draining my/our adrenal glands has subsided. The energy in the air feels softer, relaxed. There is now an abundance of time for inner reflection, inner work along with quality time with family and friends. We may be using the internet to do some of that but the shift has allowed for deeper connections. Never have I seen so many spiritual outfits offering classes, healing offerings, music available. And they are often for free or nominal charges. That all people, not just the privileged can access then is a huge change that has been sorely needed. 

In my personal world, it took several weeks after the kids started homeschooling that I was able to join them by working at home. We maintain our structures throughout the day yet being able to share a meal, take a ten minute walk or just check in face to face during a weekday is something I will forever in this life be thankful time. It has been fun to see the girls make themselves up for art projects for school, make Don and I up (to make us look silly) and the cats are thrilled we are home.
The girls have baked and cooked. Amara even make homemade dog biscuits that we delivered to some of our four legged friends. 

Below are the first snapshots of the first weeks of shelter in place. (above was an art project Amara did. She made herself the Queen of Hearts. Havana's project is below.)
Rainbow over our home.

Havana made us up!

Safe distance visiting after delivering groceries.

It was really hard to keep off sugar with these delicious homemade chocolate chip cookies by Havana Ruby.

During all this shelter in place madness, Havana was able to get her new bed; a hand me down from her cousins. The girls have been cleaning and purging as have I. There is a huge pile to donate in the garage.

School art project! 
We had some supplies that our friends wanted to get hold of. When you have what others need and have enough for yourself, it's always good to share!
                                                                                                                                          

Amara's homemade dog biscuits.

Our beloved Bodhi, who is almost 14, has kidney disease. To spend so much more time with him  is something we are not taking for granted. We are very aware this is a precious gift. He has been sneaking out in the yard and basking in the sun almost daily! When not in the sun, he hangs out with me while working or with the girls when they are in school. Bodhi is our four legged child/sibling and we are so happy to have long days with him (and Samson too!)
Despite all these positive things, we are not foolish in understanding the seriousness of these times. Some are touting 'real' reasons for the pandemic and spending time in fear or promoting these theories. I don't care at this point. We have to be safe and smart. Our dear friend Janet helped us to do that with these handmade masks sent to us from New York.




Thursday, April 16, 2020

A Minute in San Jose, CR


It was a long drive back to the capitol of Costa Rica. Not that 4 hours is far when there is little traffic and the scenery muy tranquil. It was long because what I thought was a cold was quickly becoming something much more. I slept and tried to read during the drive but a low grade fever kept it hard to focus or rest easy. A short lunch stop at a Pizza Hut, of all places, gave a little boost but I was thankful we were on our way home.

Once we got to the capital and checked in at our hotel I refused to let a fever take away what few hours we had until our morning flight. I swallowed some Tylenol and ordered a Lyft to do some last minute shopping. Havana and Don opted to hang back at the book, while Amara and I ventured out.

Unfortunately, the shopping was a bust but we did manage to find some little things (oddly enough we picked up a pair of sneakers for Havana and a top for Amara). We did get to see some of the historic architecture of downtown. Yet all I wanted to do was go back and do to sleep. I was so out of sorts that I did not even bring my camera!

We left Costa Rica the next morning excited to be heading home but a bit sad too. Our time was way too short, the land and people way so welcoming and warm and with so much more to see, that we knew we would have to return again some day. With Panama next door, who knew, we thought, maybe we'll find ourselves on an extended journey sometime in the future. 

Little did we know as we traveled in the sky back to California that the corona virus was about to blow up and that might have been our last travel adventure for awhile. I ended up being quick sick for about two weeks, the girls too. But during those days of resting in bed, I had happy memories of turquoise waters, deep green jungles and the pur vida energy of Costa Rica to comfort me.















Sunday, April 12, 2020

Here's a story about a man named Jade



One of the main reasons of this blog is to helps the girls to know about their mom before kids. Writing is easier for so it is through some of these posts that I can who I was, what made me tick and what experiences I had that made me who I am today.  Many of those things include meeting some unusual characters along my journey. Many who were kind hearted, warriors and gifted healers. One of those was a man named Jade.

I met Jade in 1987 in Sedona Arizona. I was attending the very liberal Prescott College when my dear friend Cody Coyote (who later became Cody from Dual Survivor) told me about a Full Moon ceremony happening with a Medicine Man. Was I interested? Heck yeah!

Off we went over the hills and into the valley to the sacred red rocks of Sedona. There in one of the canyons we gathered with a handful of others as this Mr Jade led us in ceremony for the Full Moon. Included in that ceremony was a song for the elements that he taught us. A song that I have continued to sing decades later.

Some months later, after attending one or two other ceremonies with Jade, I went  on a backpacking overnight with a college peer. We hiked miles and miles in the dry back country of central Arizona. We were on a mission to find these springs that pumped out millions of gallons of water an hour. The rumor was that the lost indigenous peoples (Anasazi) of the land used to camp there. After hours of hiking we came upon these sacred waters. The was crystal clear and the spring deep and wide. It seemed like we were looking down to the core of mother earth. Around the spring were trees, which seemed guard or protect the precious waters.

Tired but content, we settled in for a light meal in silence and we took in the beauty that surrounded us. When dark fell upon us, we were thankful to be in such a exquisite landscape. We thought for sure we'd have a most restful night's sleep in this beautiful space.

Much to our surprise, just as we started to doze, we became to get bitten by ants. Lots of ants. They seemed to come from nowhere and attacked. For the entire night, it seemed these ants were focused on keeping us awake. They succeeded. During the night, as the darkness settled and the land became more alive, the once serene energy we felt started to feel eerie and almost other worldly. I was young but not stupid. It did not take long to understand that these ants wanted to keep us awake so that we would not succumb to the negative energy that permeated once the blanket of night fell.

It was a long night. A trippy night. It was something this Brooklyn girl had never experienced before. Yet I knew, deep in my core, that we had come across a vortex of sorts. Some type of negative energy field that meant to do harm.

When daylight broke, my pal and I packed up our backpacks and hit the trail. What we had thought would be a two or three day back country sojourn was quickly axed. With our gear packed, we made damn good time back to where we left our car. On the drive back to civilization we were mostly silent other than a few comments like, "What the hell was that place?"

When I arrived back to the house I shared with other students I took a shower. It was my attempt to get the energy off that seemed to seep inside me. I then laid down and sleep for several hours. I woke in a fog like state which remained for the remainder of the day. I shook it off to having had no sleep the night before. That was not the case.

Over the next several days, I felt myself slowly but steadily feel more and more lethargic. It felt like someone put a vacuum to my ear and was slowly sucking out my brain and my life force. Even today, all these years later, it's hard to put in words what exactly I felt. I felt like I was dying a slow death. Finally, about three days in, I called Jade. I did not know him well yet I had a feeling I needed help that only one who knows about the medicine ways could offer. I picked up the phone (remember landlines attached to the wall), dialed Jades number. As soon as I said, "We went camping in the back country. We camped at some old Anasazi springs. I have not felt right since" Jade told me to get in my car and come over to Sedona. I did just that, with a quick stop at the gem shop in Prescott Valley, to pick up some malachite to gift to Jade.

Once at his home, Jade preformed a ceremony on me that helped to remove and clear the energy that had indeed seeped inside me. When Jade was done, I felt like I had a rebirth of sorts. That experience not only taught me what went down with the lost ingenious ones (something I will not put down in words) and how I was impacted, it also taught me some valuable life long lessons. Be mindful when going to sacred spots. Tread lightly and be respectful. Know when to go, when to leave and when to not step foot at all. I have to thank Jade for teaching me that.

After the ceremony, Jade, his grandmother and I went to dinner where I learned another prudent lesson. Having been guided by Spirit to be a vegetarian at age fifteen, I was sometimes judgey of other peoples diet. When Jade and his grandmother ordered steak for dinner I had a big aha moment. It is not important what others eat. It does not make them bad or wrong. To the contrary, important, kind, wise, gifted people eat things that I would choose to pass on.  This person had just done an essential healing ceremony on me. How could I even think to judge him? From that day forward, I had full respect for other people in whatever choices they made in their life.

Fast forward, I left Arizona, eventually graduated from Prescott College through distance learning and returned to New York after a few detours, then made my way to California where I have been for twenty years.  I always remembered Jade and the things I learned. I figured he long forgot me but I could not forget his strong, solid energy that served others. I had wondered what had happened of him. There was no internet back then. But one day there was and with some google searching, I was able to locate Jade. I emailed him and told him the story above. Again, I am sure I am one of countless others, so I did not expect him to remember me. Yet, as Facebook emerged and he began to have a presence online, I found myself once again learning from his wisdom. When I learned that Jade spends part of the year in Costa Rica and that we would be going there this winter, I was delighted that we could meet up again. When I told Jade that I still sang the song he taught me, he asked me which one and then we sang a few lines together. It was a sweet moment.

Thirty years later in the town of Puetro Viejo, we met for dinner. I was no longer a broke college student so it was my great pleasure to take him to dinner. We sat and talked and he shared his knowledge of the area. Over the next few days we found ourselves enjoying some of his well chosen suggestions (like Chino Beach, Manzanillo  and the Farmer's Market). We were even able to break bread again over breakfast at local cafe that we would never had noticed not for his input on where to have a yummy meal. I was very thankful that when I when I got to see Jade again the girls were with me. I shared the story above, which allowed me to further to educate about medicine ways,culture and gratitude. They got to met a small but long lasting part of my past in the present.That present being a joyful warrior, medicine man.



Friday, April 3, 2020

Great Green Mcaw



In the south eastern corner of Costa Rica, deep in the jungle, is a most sacred and protected space.  With our all wheel drive rental car we set off to Ara Manzanillo Preserve. Off the two lane main road, we traveled down twisting and turning dirt roads, finally ascending up a couple of fairly steep hill until we came upon the preserve for the magnificent green macaw.

One might think that with so much rain forest jungle that the speculator winged ones would be plenty. The sad truth is that animal trafficking (selling the exotic birds illegally to humans who think it cute to capture and cage birds) and the logging have wrecked havoc on the green macaw population.

Costa Rica has cracked down on the illegal capture and transfer of these birds buts sadly there is still an overseas market. Yet it has been the clear cutting of land for ranches, taking with it the almond tree, which is the main source of food for the macaw, that has caused the most damage. The Ara Manzanillo preserve has planted thousands of almond trees which has allowed the macaw to populate and thrive.  Our energetic and enthusiastic guide told us about the history of the land, the birds and their efforts to help these endangered birds continue to thrive. They limit the amount of visits of a few dozen a day, which keeps us humans from disturbing their peace. The guide gathered up some almonds for us to try and crack. It was quickly learned that macaw have some powerful jaws because almonds are hard nuts to crack!

We were in awe by these vibrant birds, with their wide wing spans, their playful and territorial natures. They were loud and happy and free. It was truly a blessing to see so many of them. When we left I thought that would be the last I would see of the green macaw and I was more than okay with that. However, I was very surprised the next morning, when sitting outside just past dusk to see a handful of them take flight outside our villa in the jungle. I am not sure if those I saw were originally from the area just south of us but it made my heart smile to see that these birds were indeed thriving.












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