Heading to UO

 

Amara has gone to UO. There are so many feelings. 

How at odds to feel so excited and beyond thrilled to see my Amara Pearl go off to a life at college where she will thrive, transform, learn more about herself and have perhaps some of the best years and hopefully make some of her best life long friends. While at the same time, I feel heartbroken, sad and a bit empty.

I hold deep joy for what she will experience,

I hold deep sadness for the shift of our family dynamics, which are now forever different.

I also feel so fucking grateful that my lifelong dream of being a mama came true and that I hit the lottery with my two small gems.. 

Being a mom to both Amara and Havana have been the greatest gifts of my life, the best experiences and I  have such deep gratitude to be both of their moms.

Now witnessing my firstborn step into her life as an adult is beautiful and bittersweet.

Whenever either of them experiences life in ways that support them in growing, learning and living life to the fullest I am grateful beyond words. I know college will be that for Amara. 

I am also relieved to my core that I still have two more years with Havana!

Amara spent most of the summer preparing for college. Packing, organizing, planning and connecting with her new rooms. That is Amara; always ready to greet life prepared and making sure she has all her ducks in a row. (pun intended!)

When go day arrived, Amara and Don packed up the car.  We had a long but sweet drive to Oregon. The next morning, we helped Amara unpack and get settled into her dorm. Our family dynamics have shifted in ways long before college but bringing Amara to college, that brought us together in a profound way and allowed, for all the good times and all the memories to gently rise to the surface and it cemented that fact that while the future is changing for us all, we have been a family and we have loved deeply, grown together and had many wonderful adventures and experiences. Sending Amara off to college was a lovely example of our love for each other as a family.

(And I repeat, I am deeply relieved I have two more years with Baby Girl because one being away at college is enough for now!)

I can’t wait to see how college life will unfold for Amara. The anticipation and joy is a beautiful thing.